Mental breakdown and Minor setbacks....Goodbye 2012!!

So 2012 was an ok year for me but the last couple of months of the year man, I have been through a lot to say the least. Even though it wasn't what I expected from the year there has been some great times. First I went to Chicago this summer with friends it was a good trip. I'm definitely going back maybe next summer. I also started to be more healthy and exercise more. Even though lately with all the holiday foods I probably gained a couple of pounds......ok who am I kidding I'm a whale!! It was also a real test on my relationship, well not really because we aren't together but working on us. The things that I've learned is that I need to look out for myself before I try to take care of anyone else. Everyone looks out for themselves and that's ok I just need to look out for me. Positivity also has been a hugeeeeee thing I've been working on with myself. I've been trying to be a more positive person by counting my blessing and being thankful for everything. Recently I've been getting back into my faith and praying more. About a week or two ago I had a mental breakdown. I felt like I wouldn't amount to nothing that I was dumb. I was so upset with myself and I felt like a disappointment to my family. School has been so stressful and I didn't really do good this semester because of personal things. I wasn't focused my mind was on other things like my relationship, my family whether or not my mom and me were going to have a home. Worrying about money and if I was going to finally get a decent job plus my health. I go through a lot but no one will ever know because I never show it, I just held it in and finally it all just came out. I still don't know if I'll be able to start this next semester at school but with Gods grace anything is possible. I'm still smiling and blessed to have everything that I have. I was a premature baby that had open heart surgery and was told I wasn't going to make it. That if I did there was a good chance of complications. Well I'm healthy, smart, strong and I know that my life was meant to be amazing or I wouldn't be here. So here's a few pictures of the year and I'm definitely looking forward to 2013 and all the good things to come!! XoXo, t.Marie22

The Day After Christmas!!!

So are you guys ready for the new year!! I am but I'm not things have really been super hard in my life right now, it's kind of hard to smile. I'm trying though and I'm blessed to have my family and friends in my life. I did receive some good news along with some bad but I'm working on it or me I should say!! Setting some goals for my blog this coming year...lets see if I go through with them!! Do you guys have New Years resolutions?? Not me I'm just going to go with the flow and focus on being positive!! Counting my blessings everyday!! Well just wanted to come by and write down my thoughts!! XoXo, tMarie22

Today.....December 9th 2012!!

Well today was an extremely hard day for me. I've been feeling so drained lately and the fact that is was fathers Birthday was just the icing on the cake. It never gets easier to lose someone so close to you. Needless to say I was feeling sorry for myself basically a emotional wreck!! My weight has been up and down just all over the place. I know I'm going to lose the weight because I am determined but its so hard mentally. Hopefully I can kick it into gear this week...since my finals will be over. XoXo,t.Marie